I have a headache today. Seems that I have a headache everyday anymore. I once thought that life was a journey and that all things in time would work out and become clear. Sometimes I would watch as an observer and sometimes I would be a participate. I never thought of changing the world, I never had some great ambition. I have always wanted the simpler things in life, family, love, good health, enough security to live comfortably. I suppose as I have gotten older and saw things through the eyes of an adult I have came to realize what a selfish, hyprocitical, political, and unfair world that we all life. I just want to have a nice home, a decent car, and a family that is healthy and happy. I look around and I see this things in other peoples lives and I wonder what I ever did or what caused my life to be so hard and difficult. I have always tried to be honest and true to all those in my life. Maybe I need to change and be selfish and hard like all these other people.

I just don't know anymore...

I am tired this evening. Seems that the world is closing in on me. I have felt bad for awhile now and I can not decide what I should do. It seems that each time that I figure out one part of my life a question arises in another part. I suppose that is life. I am happy for the most part and I realize that I am lucky in alot of ways in life. It has taken me sometime to realize all this but I am content. I just wish that I would feel better.

I have noticed something about people in general. It seems that people have no concept of a world without the internet. They look up phone numbers to local places, play games that are silly when in reality they could never complete those same tasks in reality. I may be getting older and more old fashioned or maybe I see the end of civilization as we know it coming, but people learn real life skills. Technology is important and it does make life easier but I also like the idea that I can grow a garden or read a book. Look beyond the easy and learn these tasks or the human race is doomed. That is my rant for today.