I have noticed something about people in general. It seems that people have no concept of a world without the internet. They look up phone numbers to local places, play games that are silly when in reality they could never complete those same tasks in reality. I may be getting older and more old fashioned or maybe I see the end of civilization as we know it coming, but people learn real life skills. Technology is important and it does make life easier but I also like the idea that I can grow a garden or read a book. Look beyond the easy and learn these tasks or the human race is doomed. That is my rant for today.

Life is a series of changes, this seems to be my theme for alot of thoughts and ideas recently. Every time I get comfortable or think to myself hey this is great something or someone says wait a second there and I find myself re-examining my life and the past. The past has been creeping up on me for awhile now and I hate having unresolved issues, I like to talk it out when something bothers me. Recently though I have found that the more that I talk the less that I understand. I miss people from my past and I wish that I could just talk to them like I did in the past.

I feel that I have been living in a fog that has cleared a little bit but I am waiting for it to reappear at any time. I just wish that life would be simple and that there was a pattern that we could all follow. I find that I want simple things in life, friends, a home, love.... but I am waiting for these things. Friendships that I have are shaped now by time and distance in so many respects that it is hard to find the time to really talk to my close friends. The ones that tell me the truth regardless of what I actually think.

I am ready for a change something that is different, new, and exciting. I may have started on that path I just wish I could see the stops that are coming.

Today I went bowling with some co-workers and I learned or relearned a couple of things about myself.

1. I am very impatient.
2. People have the ability to take advantage of situations.
3. I allow myself to become too involved in other people's issues.
4. I am getting older and it scares me.
5. I really need to find someone...
6. I am way to mature for somethings.

Bowling was decent...I need to go more often and have fun that is something that has been missing from my life for a little too long. I like having plans and things to do rather than sit at home or at work and watch life go slowly by.

I am so looking foward to going to Montana in about three weeks, at least I will be able to see some new things and have some new experiences.